Okay so now I'm watching this anime called Marmalade Boy(I'm at episode 4). I know it's been around for a long time, but I'm only now getting around to watching it. In some ways it kind of reminds me of Peach Girl. Like how the girl has to choose between two guys(somehow I always know who the girl is gonna end up with).

So I was thinking about it. If two guys like me, they both know that the other person likes me, and I can't choose between the two... then I might just tell them to fight over me. Like to have some sort of competition over me.

But discussing that matter...that would be kinda mean. It's hard to explain. Okay, so I tell them to fight over me, that would mean that I don't fully love either one, because I wouldn't be able to choose. You know?

But then if they really did like me, like seriously, then they would do whatever it takes to get me, right. To make it easier on myself, I could just go and get a different guy. But then that would leave the other two guys hanging there just like that and they'd be thinking,
"Why the hell was I fighting for someone that didn't even like me enough to choose me over some other guy."
And then you go back to the part that says: "Love is selfish."
and then I'll say: "Ugh why can't love be easy? It isn't all that easy for someone like me to be selfish like that. Why can't there be some magical being that tells us upon birth who we are meant to be with?"
and then they'd say: "Life is about finding and choosing your love. It's about the things that you go through to find it and what you end up doing in the end."
and then I'd be like: "Ugh. Just give me a break!! You make it sound like it's so easy but in reality it's so hard."
"No. You're just making it seem hard. You have the choice of whether or not your going to make it so hard."

But then, regarding that last part, I was thinking about it recently(btw, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately), and it occurred to me that we have the choice to do what's right, wrong, good or easy, in any given moment that it calls.
What I mean is...
You know how they say life goes on? Ok so while life is 'going on', that's when you make your choices. In every second that passes, that's when you make your choices. And after you make them and act on it, you can't change it.
This also occurred to me: "Yesterday feels just as distant as my four-year old birthday party." I can't go back and change the things that I did, the choices that I made or the things that I said.

When I think about all these things, everything just kinda comes together. All the proverbs and sayings, everything... they all add up.
It's just so amazing.

Wow!! This post lead to a lot of amazing things. First I was talking about anime then love, then life, then choices. Wow. This is why animes are good for people.
ANIMES TO THE WORLD!!!! (-:

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P.S. : I'll tell you more about Marmalade Boy and Peach Girl in another post. Look forward to them!! ;-)

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